DeaconNovember 12, 2009 Deacon turned 4 years old yesterday. I can still vividly remember waiting in the hospital waiting room in San Antonio, Texas four years ago. We had waited and prayed for Deacon for months, which seemed like decades. As I sat next to Jamie in the waiting room, we waited for a little boy we had already named Deacon to enter the world. We hadn’t met his mom yet, but we already loved and cherished her, and prayed for her as she delivered Deacon.
At the time, adoption was still a really crazy idea to us. Cayden was almost 2 years old, and I remember having this huge question in my head, “Will I instantly feel the same love for Deacon as I do Cayden, my biological child?” I didn’t know what to expect as I waited for Deacon. The nurses came and got us and said Deacon was about to taken to the nursery, so we waited with hands pressed against the nursery glass for them to tell us which one was Deacon. They all looked the same to me. Pink and purple, wrinkly, screaming babies laying in tiny plastic beds filled the nursery. I kept thinking, which one is he!? Finally, one of the nurses waved at us, pointed to Deacon, and mouthed, “Here he is!” through the glass. I still can’t adequately describe the feeling I experienced. All I know is it was the same crazy epic sort of feeling I experienced the first time I saw and held Cayden on his birth date. Although Deacon doesn’t have my DNA, there’s never been a moment he’s felt any less than my very own flesh and blood. Kemper movie download download Lady from Louisiana Deacon might not know it yet, but his short 4 years of life has already changed my heart as well as hearts around us. God has used his story to shape our view of adoption. It’s also been an illustration to others around us that domestic adoption is a beautiful thing. God’s got something really incredible planned for this little boy. I’m grateful to be his dad! We had watched several people walk through adoption, and as we watched them and became educated about the process, we began to view it in a new light. We were and always will be PRO-birthmom. (Jamie wrote a fantastic post called “Deacon’s First Mom“) His first mom made decisions that I cannot fathom, and she entrusted me to be Deacon’s father and Jamie to be his mother. We still have a relationship with his first mom, and we talk about her frequently with Deacon. Hopefully Deacon will grow up knowing he was loved from the very first moment of his existence…and he’s fortunate to have had two mothers that selflessly love him.
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November 12th, 2009 @ 10:28 am
Beautiful man! Thank you for sharing your heart for his birthmom. Something that we try to express to our children as well!
November 12th, 2009 @ 10:38 am
I am Camille, Jason and Holly’s friend. We have a little boy Troupe that we adopted with the same social worker, Nicole Hill. I already think he looks a lot like Deacon but would you believe he turned 4 yesterday, Nov. 11th too? How weird is that??! My husband told his story at Riverstone this past weekend. He was born at 26 weeks and was not thought to live much less thrive. He is doing fantastic! We did not get our little man at birth but I do think it is neat that Deacon and Troupe share the same social worker and birthday. Thanks for sharing his story!
November 12th, 2009 @ 3:26 pm
Great story, Aaron. You guys continue to inspire.