pursuit & purposeOctober 29, 2009 As I left the hospital room to come to my favorite reading/writing place (Thunderbird), Jamie looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, “I’m glad I get to walk through all of this with you.” I couldn’t agree with her more. Story is back at the hospital today…we’re not sure if they are re-admitting her or not. Doing bone scans which is a long process to figure out if there is infection in her bones. She’s still not using her legs and in a lot of pain/discomfort. God has been and continues to unify our family through all of this. I am grateful everytime I see another one of His purposes unfold. It’s a beautiful thing. Inherit the Wind trailer You know, adoption is not easy. We’ve always said and known that…and we’ve tried to make that clear as we talk to others about it. Orphan care in general takes great risk & great sacrifice. Anyone that masks it as easy or risk-free is either a liar or a liar. But it’s been interesting, because even in the middle of worry and chaos, there is great joy. You see, joy comes not from a promise of instant healing, but from the promise of God’s fatherhood, pursuit, and purpose. Whether it’s my little girl who has been rescued from being an orphan and now sits in the surgical wing of Dell OR my little boy who sits in Haiti wondering with his papa will return — I’m taking joy in my Father’s pursuit and the mysteries of his purposes. Knowing that my Father is at work, and has divinely appointed every step of this process is not only reassuring…it also brings JOY. All Hell Broke Loose psp International adoption… no one can prepare you for a day like this. It’s a day you’ve dreamed about for years. You’ve prayed, you’ve wept, and spent many nights begging God to do the impossible to bring your baby home. Then, the day comes… Your little girl you begged God for finally comes home. wow. You want her to naturally fit into your house and family fun, but she can’t. You want to kiss all over her face and have her giggle, but she can’t. You want her to see you, stretch her smile as wide as her face and yell “daddy!”, but she can’t. She can’t…because she doesn’t know you. Heathers rip I’ve known Story for two years now. I know as much as I possible can about her…but she doesn’t know me at all…two years of bonding have to be made up for! Satan’s Playground psp The adjustment will take time. The day will come when she will light up when she sees me…but for now, I will wait. I’ll gently pursue her and whisper, “I’m your papa” even as she cries and pushes me away. She is my daughter and I’m her daddy. I take JOY in continuing to love and pursue her, just as God takes joy in continuing to love and pursue us. and when she finally has bonded with me, I might just turn into the biggest softie you’ve ever met. Leave a Reply
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October 29th, 2009 @ 12:48 pm
Thank you for your honesty. As you know, domestic adoption is hard too. Adoption, by nature, is born out of pain. It’s irritating to me when I hear people talk about it like adoption is all rainbows and sunshine. That’s crap. It’s a miracle with God’s hand all over it, and I hope to do it again soon… But it is NOT easy. Just like most things God calls us to.
October 29th, 2009 @ 1:15 pm
oh gosh. I’m crying…at work. Thanks for this post. I love the honesty and raw-ness that you and Jamie possess. I am continually in awe of how God is using you all and your story to be a beautiful picture of our walk and relationship with God. I just think…how many times do we push God away and He CONTINUES to whisper “I am your papa”. God takes great joy in loving and pursuing us. Thanks for that reminder. Love you guys!
October 29th, 2009 @ 2:58 pm
honestly…as I read this it becomes a little difficult to tell if it’s your voice talking about your love for Story or if it’s God voice talk about His love for me.
“I’ll gently pursue her and whisper, ‘I’m your papa’ even as she cries and pushed me away.”
…wow, speechless.
Thank you for your words of encouragement, they echo in my mind as we wait for our little girl to come home as well.
October 29th, 2009 @ 3:48 pm
becca — yes, know it very well!
emily — i hope you don’t get fired for crying at the desk!
mike — glad you are encouraged! praying for your journey as well!
October 29th, 2009 @ 8:32 pm
Love the transparency. My family will be praying for your family.
November 1st, 2009 @ 8:46 am
Incredible. Absolutely incredible.
Jeanie passed this blog along to me and it was well worth the time to read it.
God has put the desire in our hearts…thank God.